Series: Trails of Sin #1
on May 1st 2018
Genres: Dark Romance
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I try to forget her.
Growing up together, Conor and I shared all our firsts.
First love, first kiss, first…
Not all our firsts.
We were sixteen the night she was violently assaulted while I helplessly watched.
I’ll never forget the sounds of her suffering.
Or my inconsolable agony when she left Oklahoma.
Years later, she returns to honor our teenage pact.
Except the boy she loved is gone, replaced by a ruthless cattle rancher knotted with secrets.
She doesn’t know my dark cravings or the trails of sin that lead to her.
I don’t deserve her, but one truth remains.
by Pam Godwin
I’ve been eager to read a book by Pam Godwin for a long time, have had Dirty Ties on my Kindle for a while. Finally, finally I had the chance to find out what the rave is all about. I do have a couple of her books on my kindle but you know…#bloggerproblems. When I saw the blurb for Knotted I WAS SO IN. It promises angsty, heartbreak and a wicked cowboy. Yes. Yes. AAAAND YES, PLEASE!
Despite knowing what the blurb was alluding to I was kept in a false sense of security at the beginning. Knotted started out really sweet with two teenagers in love, getting down to business for the very first time. What then ensued was nothing short of devastating and heartbreaking. I was broken along with Conor.
After you have something happening to you that works your very soul over with a cheese grinder you think it can’t get much worse. What Conor had to endure even after her ordeal was horrific and would break a weaker minded human being. And here’s what I loved most about her – she fought. ALL. THE. TIME. She fought for her soul and didn’t bargain. Her trust had to be earned, deserved and once you’d lost it it was hard to get it back. She was a resilient woman who showed strength in exposing her weaknesses to the people who broke her trust. She’d been robbed of everything so there was no point of hiding them anyway.
Jake’s hand in Conor’s heartbreak was hard to witness. The choices he made for everyone close to him were high-handed, and sometimes selfish. He was a little bully, seemingly unrepentant of his actions…until later in the book his own facade cracked. He showered Conor with TLC and tough love. His deep feelings for Conor, nourished from childhood on, were everything. I loved his determination to see the girl he loved return to herself.
Admittedly I had a couple of issues and they mostly had to do with Jake. It is way, WAY unrealistic for a 17 year old virgin to know that they are into BDSM, at least not the way Jake was into it. He sounded more like a 30 year old man than a teenager so that wasn’t quite working for me. The second thing I found utterly unrealistic was Jake’s treatment of Conor’s PTSD. Researching PTSD therapy on the internet doesn’t give you the knowledge and authority you need to help somebody deal with their past trauma. And it definitely doesn’t work in days or weeks. It takes months and years.
The BDSM is on the lighter side so I suppose most people who like their sexy times in books a little spicier will be happy with this one.
With all that being said I enjoyed this story immensely. What you get here is definitely on the darker spectrum of romance. Knotted is sexy and steamy, gripping and riveting. It’s about an epic love that will make you weep when things are getting hard. Pam Godwin is an extraordinarily talented author whose writing voice has a touch of poetry – I’m crushing so hard on her. I can’t wait to discover all of her different timbres.
All teasers courtesy of the author