Series: Preload #4
Published by St. Martin's Press on May 1st 2018
Genres: Contemporary Romance, Rock Star Romance
Source: Netgalley, St. Martin's Press
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Lennon McCartney is not a broken man. Because being broken implies being whole once. When a horrific accident deprives him of the one thing he loves—his talent as a fierce and explosive drummer—Lennon is left with a life chained by an abusive mother, by crushing guilt over a tragic past. A life he doesn’t want.
Dr. Georgia Starr is a legend. She’s one of the most successful neurosurgeons in the world, coming from a long-line of respected New York doctors. Her life is built around solving complex medical cases in order to bring relief and hope to sick children. But the one problem she can’t solve is how to live her life. How to be shake loose the burden of being her elitist, arrogant father’s daughter. How to be free.
Can a man who despises his life and a woman who desperately needs to live find the answers, and love, with each other?
**Warning: Deals with dark themes and deep personal struggles.**
by Scarlett Cole
You know an author did a great job writing a character when you ache, sympathize and grieve with a character. Scarlett Cole definitely did that for me with Lennon.
Lennon is Preload’s drummer, the guy in the background yet an integral part of the band, leading their songs with his rhythm. On the outside you wouldn’t see the demons he is hiding but look into his eyes, if he lets you, and you’ll see the darkness that lies over his thoughts. Lennon had a god-awful childhood. It’s what nightmares are made of and the guilt he carries presses down on him every day. The reasons he still carries on without breaking are his band mates and his music. When fate takes his music away he is on the precipice of just giving up. This is where my heart just shattered. The man who didn’t have much left to live to begin with was coming apart at the seams.
The person who saves him in every imaginable way is Dr. Georgia Starr, a neurosurgeon with a stellar career and the potential of being the best in her field. She is a true New Yorker – she loves the city, her apartment that holds so many memories of her mentor and confidante, her grandfather. It’s the only real love she experienced from a family member. Saving Lennon’s life is a pivotal point in her own life. Georgia is full of admiration but also sorrow for this young man who doesn’t seem to be able to find his footing again and she wants nothing more than to be there for Lennon and help him.
“Take care of me,” he whispered against her neck. “I’m lost, Gia.”
Lennon is such an intense, tragic character. I wanted to wrap him up in bubble wrap and keep all the monsters at bay for him. He is so haunted by his demons, you could feel how he was trying to battle them, and at the same time he is so exhausted of doing just that. I can’t count how many times I was afraid he would give in and let them take him away. How lonely he must have felt that he thought that he couldn’t talk to the people closest to him, the brothers he grew up with. How desperate he must have been because he thought people would leave him if he told them about his past. How often he wanted to tell the people he loved his thoughts, his feelings yet between his heart and his mouth the words didn’t get out. He never gets whiny in a “woe-is-me” sort of way and I loved that. Lennon did have some very valid reasons to feel the way he did. My heart took quite a beating from him.
Georgia is a kind and sweet heroine, ambitious with a bite that took her through university and made her become one of the leading neurosurgeons at a very young age. Her father was a spiteful, jealous man but as they say – blood is thicker than water and she still looked for his approval. When Lennon enters her life she feels an instant pull. When Lennon acts out she gives him some tough love, she doesn’t let him use excuses for the way he deals with his fate. She calls him out on it – I loved that she never did it harshly. There was always an undertone of deep care about it and it was crystal clear to me why Lennon fell in love with her. She coaxed him out of his walls and when she was proud about his small victories against the darkness I knew she deserved this wonderful, damaged young man.
He knew he’d been gruff and unpredictable and wished he was better able to manage his moods, but when it came to her, she was like the break of sun on a rain-filled day.
Both of these characters are in need of healing and are exactly for one another what is required to make them whole again. I loved Lennon’s and Gia’s journey. While there was a lot of angst it never got overwhelming. I am truly happy how this story turned out – it’s pure beauty packed in a fast and satisfying read.
Scarlett Cole is a talented author with a respectable number of released books under her belt. The books in this series are all standalone but Lennon Reborn made me curious about the other members of Preload. The way they showed their love for each other, how they were there whenever Lennon needed them, just made me want to get to know them too. Since I have most of her books already waiting for me on my Kindle I’m ready to go back to the start and meet Lennon’s brothers who may not be family by blood but in every way that counts.
I promise you that the light at the end of it is going to blind the fucking shit out of you. Let it, brother, because when it does, it’s a thing of beauty.
**Trigger warning: this story deals with darker themes and suicide