A LITTLE BIT LIKE LOVE
South Haven #1
On a business trip for his dad’s company he overhears a conversation in a diner between two men that has Jackson’s heart in his throat. Lucas Sullivan, the one that got away, can be found at a night club, that evening. As a combination of terror and hope fills him he contemplates seeing the love he left behind again. For eight years he has been squashing his lingering feelings him. Right there, in this diner in a place so close to where he last saw Lucas, they all come rushing back to the surface.
Even after all this time. I thought I’d gotten over it. Accepted it, moved past it. But seeing him again brought back every ounce of hurt and shame I’d felt back then, which pissed me off because it meant I was still broken. And it was all his fucking fault.
Jackson is everybody’s darling. He is friendly, kind and sweet, comes from old money and has stunning good looks and boyish charm.
Lucas’ character is the polar opposite, except in the looks department. He is the local sex god and man-ho and he makes good use of his reputation. Guys flock him and he can choose from an array of tourists that visit South Haven. Having Jackson back in his life means having to face and work through the past and that’s not what he wants. Lucas fights Jackson with tooth and nails and settles firmly in jerk territory.
“I lost my parents. I lost you. Then Gram passed. Putting up walls is the only way I know how to cope at this point.”
He doesn’t realize that he hurts himself the most when he lashes out at Jackson. He only knows that he can’t get hurt again like he did eight years ago. Him being a grade A asshole towards Jackson doesn’t make him sound very likable but despite it all I still did. Lucas’ loneliness and hurt is coming off the pages so vividly that you just can’t help and feel for him. And when he starts to open up you see the sweet, funny, mischievous guy from Jackson’s memory coming back.
Lucas groaned and pushed me away as I laughed. “Fucking tease,” he muttered.
“What was that?”
He plastered a fake smile on his face. “I said do you like any of these?”
If Jackson was anything less but as patient and understanding as he was, Lucas train wreck of a life would end like that – lonely and bitter. Jackson is a good man, the better man really, and the way Lucas treated him sometimes would have chased every other guy away but he can see right through Lucas’ facade. It couldn’t have been anyone else saving this abrasive, acrimonious man. Jackson was incredibly lovable and endearing and everything Lucas needed to let go of his fear.
A thousand words were said in those moments of silence, and most of them began with, “I’m sorry.” All of the anger and hurt and resentment washed away as we sat there making up for our offenses without saying a word.
This story had everything that ticks my boxes, angst, lighthearted humor, a gripping plot and fascinating characters. Anxiety tightened my chest not just once and when Lucas fired off his barbs my eyes stung with tears a couple times. He could be such an asshole.
The set of secondary characters is amazing and while I’m looking forward to both Shaw’s and Bash’s stories, the scales tipped slightly in Bash’s favor towards the end. He is such a scintillating, colorful character! Having said that though, I LOVED Shaw.
This is the first MM romance Brooke Blaine wrote alone and didn’t co-author. I am tremendously impressed how riveting, hot and intense this story was. Ms. Blaine wanted to give her readers her very best and let me tell you, it is one of the best MM books I’ve read this year. Whenever I wasn’t studying my eyes were glued to my Kindle. If you read MM do yourself a favor and pick this up. Now the waiting for Shaw’s story begins.